During everyone』s lifetime, we will meet a lot of
things or people and gain various experiences from these contacts. And
there were a lot of things that we need to make decisions on. At those
moments, in the depth of our minds, there would be struggle. If you
choose one, you would lose the other. Every option suddenly becomes
important. Still, everyone must make a final choice. Even if we lose
something, we can always look forward to gaining it again on another
day.
When I was in the last year of my high school
education, I became interested in going abroad for further studies. I
wanted to get in touch with other countries』 cultures and things and to
see how wonderful the world is. Although I did not think my ability was
good enough to go abroad and study in great colleges, I still wanted to
expand my horizon. At that instant, there was a chance for me to carry
out my dream.
Right Before the J.C.E.E, my classmate』s mother told
me a piece of news that thrilled me. There was a Japanese university
that was recruiting new students from other countries. My friend』s
mother even gave me an application form and hoped that I could go to
Japan with my classmate. When I learned about the news, I was very glad
and wanted to apply to the school. I thought that was a good chance for
me to learn about different cultures and countries. I showed all of
the information to my father and asked for his permission to apply to
the university. I thought that he would agree with my opinion and
support me. But after reading it, he just said 「No,」 and didn』t listen
to my opinions. I was very angry that he didn』t listen to my thoughts
and just told me to give up. What he said shattered my dream and we got
into a fierce argument.
When my father turned me down, I took the information
to my mother with little hope. To my surprise, my mother said that I
could try and catch the rare chance. That made me so happy, but
unfortunately, my father heard the dialogue between my mother and me.
In anger, he tried to persuade my mom to not let me join the application
process. My mom was persuaded and she told me that my family couldn』t
afford the great expenses. Moreover, she told me that both of them
wouldn』t like me to go abroad for my college studies. That made me so
depressed again and I didn』t want to talk with my family any more.
Finally, after a long period of arguments, I yielded to my parents and
gave up the chance to apply. I promised my parents to stay in Taiwan
and join the J.C.E.E. I told my classmate』s mother that I couldn』t go
with her daughter. Later, my friend happily told me that she got the
chance to enter that school. When I heard the news, I was happy for her
but felt a little depressed about myself.
Because of this thing, there was a long period of
time when I did not communicate with my parents. And we drifted further
apart. Although we lived in the same house, we seldom talked to each
other. Looking back at those days today, I think I was too impulsive at
that time. I was so childlike that I never thought of the many problems
of going abroad. Actually, going abroad would be an expensive burden
for my family』s economics. And when I really can go abroad, there will
be more difficulties. If I stay, I can also learn what I want to get
in Taiwan. And it doesn』t take a lot of money. Even though I had
given up going abroad at that time, it doesn』t mean that I would give up
my dream and ideal. When I have enough ability to earn money to satisfy
myself, I』ll carry out my dream one day.