Dealing with Death


簡瑜蓓

          God works in mysterious ways.  Sometimes we seem to have lost something but in fact we would get more.

          My boyfriend, Wei, and I had a common friend, Chen.  In fact, I knew Chen because I fell in love with Wei.  They were classmates.  When Wei dropped out of the same cram school that all three of us were in, Chen often helped me with math questions.  I was very poor at math, but he always helped me with all the world』s patience.  When we three went on a BBQ together, Chen was very enthusiastic to do things such as making a fire for us.  The time we spent together was filled with laughter.  And Chen was really a friendly, humorous, and generous guy.

          Then at the very beginning of this semester, Wei called me up and said, 「Chen would never talk to me anymore.」  I laughed and answered, 「Why not?  What did you do to him?」  Then Wei told me in a very sad voice that Chen had been killed in a car accident.    I was too shocked to say anything.  It was like a lightning had stricken me down; I lost the ability to respond.  There seemed to be a big rock pressing me, causing breathing difficulties in me.  I didn』t understand why God had called him back so hurriedly.  His best years were just beginning.  My roommate said that Chen would have a more beautiful life in Paradise.  Though I was convinced that he would go to heaven, still, I didn』t feel any more comfortable.

          Several days passed, I finally picked the phone and called Wei at night.  I was worrying about him and wondered if he had felt better.  I told Wei that Chen was like the little prince in Oscar Wilde』s story who gave up himself for others, I broke into tears and cried for one hour.  The situation was out of my control.  During our whole conversation, it was Wei that consoled me.  He said that if Chen knew we were so sad, he might laugh at us.  We both believe he would feel our yearning and blessing even in heaven.

          God works in mysterious ways.  Thought He took my dear friend away, that made me treasure my life and everyone by my side.  And I am also determined to live more splendidly.  In other words, God gave me a brand new life by taking Chen back.  He really works in mysterious ways.

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